Middle of It

I recently saw a video of one of my favorite country artists, Lainey Wilson, giving a speech for Time magazine. She talked about being planted with purpose and trusting that your fruits will grow with time and nurturing. Just speak all the truth Lainey!

Looking back on this past year, I realized I started to see the puzzle pieces of difficult years prior start to fall into place. While the year had some lows, it was full of highs to the point I recently told a friend I was due for a loss at some point. There’s my superstition coming into play again…

One of my favorite songs by Lainey Wilson is “Middle of It.” It might just be one of my favorite songs ever according to my Spotify wrapped playlist. I’ll leave out the number of times I listened to it this year. The song takes me back to some difficult times I had a few years ago. It reminds me of all the good that has come out of those hard times. And it directly connects to Lainey’s speech of being planted with purpose.

This past year, I watched my art business grow into something I never could have imagined. It has organically grown over the years (with lots and lots of nurturing) all because I finally decided to share my hidden talent. Writing this now, I still can’t believe it and I’m excited to see where it goes next.

My day job challenged me in ways I never thought it would. I stepped into a new role leading a full team, while also managing clients, eventually landing me a promotion at the end of the year. After years of hating my career, I felt like I stepped into something God had planned for me all along.

So you're a dreamer chasing the stars
Where you wanna wind up sure ain't where you are
Praying the dues that you're paying are worth the price
Hard to tell how far you are from the start and the finish line

I used to tell my friends that I felt stuck in life. Like I wasn’t living out my purpose of what I felt called to do (if I even really knew what that is…because I honestly still don’t). All the while, I was just in the middle of it. It was a chapter of my life that paved the way for what I have now. It was staying planted where the Lord led me so that it would grow into what He intended for it to be.

Now, I have to admit…there are still some areas of my life I feel stuck. Being 33 and single is…well its weird and confusing. It’s a place I have felt stuck for some time. As much as I desire to have a family some day (and move east to where the land and sky are both blue) I’m learning to rest in this phase of life, and to fully trust that the Lord does make everything beautiful in it’s time. I’m in the middle of it. Planted right where the Lord wants me to be.

In the middle of the road when the smoke ain't clear
Don't know how to look at that half glass beer
Got ya leaning on the Lord while ya under your breath just a cussing
Oh but one of these days you're gonna miss these days
When you didn't even know you were on your way
Knee deep in the weeds you can only see just a little of it
Smack dab in the middle of it

So, thank you Lord. Thank you for the tough times when I had no idea if I would make it out. Thank you for planting me where I am today. Thank you for answered prayers and for answering the ones I can’t see yet. Thank you for the community that’s always in my corner. I am so undeserving.

2025 you were good. Let’s do 2026.